Note to self - I think I'm a loner. Wonder why I never quite thought about it. The only reason I even realized this is because I actually hung out with people this weekend. Not went out, just chilled with them. Usually I'm out of town spending entire weekends on the road, or I'm here in VA working most of the time. Hot damn, I really AM a loner!
I also realized I'm a pretty terrible friend. Matter of fact, I don't even know why some people keep me around. Not that I'm terrible to friends, no. I love them all to death, but I just don't show or tell them. For instance, I'm not attached to my cellie at all. I sometimes even leave it in the car, then go get it several hours later for the sole reason that I needed to, say, download a photo from it. It will ring and most of the time I'll look at it disinterestedly, then go back to whatever it is I was doing. Three, four days later is when I actually get to listen to messages, can you believe that? That's just wrong, coz what if someone was in an actual emergency and I wasn't there? That hasn't happened yet, thank God, but what if it did? That would really suck.
On the way back tonight I saw a reaaallly bad accident right here by the crib and that's when I had a trois-à-trois, so to speak, with me, myself and I. The >d® dressed in red on my left shoulder didn't say anything at all this time around, but the >d® dressed in all white, with the halo, on my right shoulder was like:
Damn dude, your punk ass could be gone tomorrow, just like that. Either that, or someone dear to you might be. What unsaid things would you regret not having shared with your friends or family? You need to get your sh*t together homeboy, and be better to people that give two sh*ts about your sorry ass.
Indeed, I need to. So, for the record, to anyone out there that I've been a complete ass to, my bad. More importantly, I'll change that about myself. As uncharacteristically decisive as I've been lately, I know I'll change. Can't afford not to.
That said, gotta go catch some winks, get some shuteye, count sheep, all that good stuff. Have yourself a good week.